Hi Everyone! Well I'm Becoming Aware That I Have Readers. Thank You! I Haven't Been Online In A While So I Haven't Posted. I've Had A Lot Going On In My Life. To Say The Least The 2005 Holidays Have Been The Hardest. I've Changed A Lot This Year And The Greatest Gift I've Received All Year Was Bringing One Of My Beloved Sons Back Home Permanently. 1 Down 2 To Go. While I Have Loved It, Its Been So Hard. But I Have Enough Faith To Know That If God Didn't Intend For Him To Be Home With Me, He Wouldn't Be. My Financial Situation Has Been Awful And Sometimes Even If You Do Everything Possible To Change Things, There's Nothing That Can Actually Change It Until Something Is Meant To Change. The Financial Problems I've Had Just Have Snowballed A Lot Of Other Problems In Life. And I Just Recently Parted With My Ex Whom I Was With For Over  A Year. This Caused A Lot Of Problems In My Family Because They've Never Understood That Sometimes, Staying In A Situation That Is Not Good For You Or Your Children Is Not Worth Any Amount Of Money Be It Whether It Is A Little Money Or A Lot. I Know That I Did What Was Best For My Son Regardless Of What The World Or My Judgmental Family Thinks. My Son Wasn't Happy. I Wasn't Happy. I Wasn't Living Right With God Because Of It. But I Have A Brother Who Is Something Else. He's Never Had Kids So He'll Never Understand What Moms Gotta Do. My Mother Who Has Been In Worse Spots In Life Should Understand But Doesn't. My Sisters Who Have Had Everything Handed To Them On A Silver Platter Because Their Dad Is Rich Don't Know Me. They Don't Ever Ask My Side So They Judge Me Based On What My Other Relatives Have To Say. Things Would Be Better In My Family If My Family Listened To Me & Appreciated Me Like My Readers & Audiences Do. All That Matters To My Son Is That I Love Him And Care For Him. My Son Is Home With Me And Doesn't Want To Live With His Dad. I Made Him A Promise That He'd Never Have To If I Had Anything To Say About It. His Dad Has The Money, But Not The Morals. That's What's Important In Raising A Family - The Morals. My Babies Are My World. I'd Give Up All I Had To For Them. If I Inherited A Million Dollars Today And Someone Tomorrow Told Me Give Up The Money Or Give Up My Babies, I'd Give Up The Money No Questions Asked. I've Done It. I Began Dating A Very Rich Man Last Summer (2004). But Work Was More Important Than Me. So I Dumped Him. He Wasn't Happy. But Oh Well. The Measure Of Money's Actual Worth Doesn't Add Up To Squat When Put Up Against Family & Morals. My Family Is My Family In Name & Blood Only. Not In The Ways That Matter. I Love The Kids In The Family. But With Family Like Mine, Who Can Afford Enemies?

So Here We Are In A Crazy Point In Life. I'm Working Hard To Find A Job And Run My Network (My Network Doesn't Make As Much Money As Anyone Thinks, Not Even Close). Once I Can Situate Certain Things In Life, I'm Buying A 3-4 Bedroom House With A Fenced Yard. I Hate Moving. I Hate Apartment Complexes. I Want Something That Is Ours In The Suburbs Full Of Families Where You're Close To Your Neighbors, Church & Schools. I Want My Kids To Have Their Own Rooms. I Want A Basement. I Want Room For A Piano & To Have Lots Of Room For When Loved Ones Come Visit. I Want An Office. Mostly, I Want To Raise My Family Without People Telling Me How They Think I Should Raise My Kids And Where My Kids Are Loved & Cared For Very Well.

As I Approach 30 (Next Wednesday - Dec. 21) I've Realized How Much I Have Changed And Accomplished. I Was So Rebellious And Promiscuous For Years. This Year Changed Me From That Mroe That The Most Recent Years And All My Family Has Been Through. Now I'm Realizing That I Need To Make Serious Plans For  Long Term Goals. I Used To Think Only To The End Of The Day, Week Or Month. That Was So Disastrous. That's The Small Picture. There Is Life Beyond. I Love And Appreciate My Kids & Life. I Can't Wait To Be A Single Parent In A New Home For My Kids And I! We'll See You Later. Thanks For All Of Your Wonderful Thoughts And Comments! 

I'm Falling For You......

I Don't Have The Time Or Patience To Update Right Now, So I'll Get Back To This At A Later Date & Time.